Born under the Sign of the Snake
Destined to be a seeker, I’m looking for wholeness, but I only find fragments. These make up my dreamlike worldview.

Bullying harms both the victim and the perpetrator

Being a victim of bullying as a child increases the risk of psychosis in adulthood. This applies not only to the victim but also to the perpetrators, as a study found. Bullying is something terrible and goes straight to the core.

When I was about 13 years old, I went through a hard and intense time. I was bullied. It was the transition from primary school to high school, which naturally brought many changes. Due to an infection that forced me to spend three weeks in a hospital, my entry into school was delayed. It was already difficult enough to catch up the learning material. The teacher made very high demands, and so there were so many homework assignments every day that I, as a slow student, simply couldn’t handle it. There was a lot of pressure in the class. Since it was evident that everything was too much for me, I became briefly said, for some pupils the outlet for their own excessive stress.

Being put under pressure by the teacher and bullied by my classmates led to suicidal thoughts for the first time in my life. Things began to take a different direction when I expressed this by showing my mother a rope and stating that I would hang myself. After a painful time and much to and fro I was allowed to attend another school. I slowly started to fit in well with the new class. The suicidal thoughts, however, remained for a long time, well over twenty years. Yes, and I experienced several psychotic episodes in adulthood. Before I heard about the study mentioned in the link, it never occurred to me that there might be a connection with bullying.

Childhood Bullying Ups Risk of Psychosis as Adult

In fact, I think that this cannot be blamed for my mental illness alone. But I recognize it as one of the causes. That is why I would like to raise awareness of this issue. It took me a long time to forgive those who harassed me or contributed to the situation. Since I forgave, I was able to let go of the suppressed anger, and the healing process continues.

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